New Year! New Blog!

Happy New Year my awesome, awesome creative friends~! I hope you are more ready for this new year than ever before (i definitely am!) 2013 is a year of amazing new opportunities and creative flourishing for us all! That said, I want to thank you so much form the very deep part of my heart for supporting me & subscribing to this blog. That said (again) I would like to invite you to join me at my new blog-my heart’s desire is to create a community of creative believers!

www.annebeancreative.weebly.com

This new blog is so exciting to me because I share both my creative side & my believer side! It’s such a part of me!
I would love your support in subscribing to my new blog, just click the link, add your email in the box on the right side bar and click subscribe. I’ve already added some New Year’s goodies (Play & Plan Fun Sheet and fb cover banners) that will help get our 2013 off to a creative start!
www.annebeancreative.weebly.com

Please let me know how I can support you as well! We are doing this thing together!!!

May God creatively bless you in this new year~! Love you!

What a Journey

Well, here I am. More than a  week into my “becoming my own fairy godmother” (BMOFG) journey. There have been rough days, great days, mediocre days, days where I felt lost, days of elation and days of quiet introspection but, whatever the day brought, it’s all been worth it.

Remind me but isn’t there a saying or belief that goes something like, “Once you take a step towards the universe the universe takes 10 steps towards you.” If there isn’t a saying like that, there should be because I have found it to be absolutely 100% true. I took that first step of faith and God has responded!

It’s like once you draw the line and decide that there is NO OTHER OPTION OTHER THAN BEING THE TRUE YOU you’re Spirit throws a party and says, “YES! This is what we’ve been waiting for!”

Deciding to become my own fairy godmother has been an absolute gift. I certainly haven’t done everything right in this first week; there’s a lot I wish I would’ve gotten to (alot I think a fairy godmother would’ve done during this time) but WHO CARES?!! I’ve taken these first few steps (creating more art & sharing it on etsy, putting more effort into connecting with others) and each tiny movement builds upon the next.

I’ve been singing “Put one foot in front of the other” from Santa Claus is Comin’ to Town. You see, I don’t care that I’m not as far as ‘I want to be’, all’s I care is that I put one foot in front of the other and keep progressing. I never knew all the words to that song but I just took the time to watch the video on youtube and oh my gosh, I love it! I’m pretty sure I am going to be listening to this song a lot more in the upcoming days!

Check out some of the lyrics:

If I want to change the reflection

I see in the mirror each morn

You mean that it’s just my election

To vote for a chance to be reborn

A chance to be reborn! That’s exactly what I want to acheive here with becoming my own fairy godmother. I am letting the artist in me be ‘born’ and the creative soul in me that wants to look at butterflies & hummingbirds with childlike wonder be ‘born’ and the me that wants to err on the side of love & risk to be ‘born’.

This week as part of my BMOFG journey I started researching one of the most ‘famous’ fairy godmothers; Cinderella’s. (yes, saying I’m researching a famous fairy godmother makes me giggle but oh well!). I started reading a short Disney version of the story and it didn’t take me but 3 pages to get to my first lesson. Here’s the book & page:

It’s the part of the story where they receive the invitation to the Prince’s ball and Cinderella overhears her Stepmother & stepsisters reading it. “How nice!” thought Cinderellas. “I am invited, too.” ALERT! Did you hear the lesson signal going off? Cinderella heard the invitation and instead of thinking, “Oh, of course the invitation’s not for me. I’m not good enough to go.” She thought “I am invited, too.” From this we see, at that moment Cinderella chose positive SELF TALK! So I decided that as my very own fairy godmother, I would encourage myself by focusing on :::POSITIVE SELF TALK:::

I’m gonna’ be sharing more about my week+ of positive self talk on my first guest post on Your Life Your Way                             SUPER EXCITED FOR THIS!!! I’ll let you know when my first guest post is up!

Until then, go listen to this song: “Put one foot in front of the other”  (seriously, do it~~it’ll make you more happy now!) and keep putting one foot in front of the other. Thanks for reading and please post your comments of what you thought about the song. 🙂

Hello world!

I just got off the phone with my husband. Tears of joy came to my eyes as we talked. I’ve got my big fluffy red robe on, I’m sitting on my living room floor and I know that NOW IS THE TIME.

THIS is the perfect catalyst for me to live the rest of my life.

From this point on it’s BOTTOMS UP and today truly is THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE.

Have you ever resisted who you are? Really known who you are inside but due to some preconceived notions or some bad mental programming about who we are “supposed to be”, you put your true self on the backburner and tried to live a life that just looked more ‘normal’. I feel like I’ve done that for a lot of my adult life (or at least a large part of the last 7 years) and it has finally come to a head and I can’t take it anymore. I’ve just got to be me, accept my needs and desires and dreams and hobbies and beliefs and way of looking at life are legitimate and just get on with it!

So here I go on this blog journey to heal and express and accept more parts of me and hopefully connect with a part of you along the way so that together we can grow.

Yes, there are very ugly sides to me (if you knew the thoughts that sometime pop into my head=whoa!). Yes, there are very joyful and childlike parts of me (I still hug my stuffed animals). Yes, there are very insecure parts of me and hypocritical parts of me and splendid parts of me and talented parts of me and needy parts of me and on & on. But, I am committed to all parts of me; to growing into the very best, happiest, creative, selfless and loving version of me.

So here I am; feeling more vulnerable than I have in awhile. But it’s time to wake up. A friend recently asked me if I was ok and I replied, “Other than being dead for about a year, I’m good.”

So yah, I’ve been dead for awhile and it’s time to revive.

I named this blog “My Own Fairy Godmother” based on something I drew awhile back. It was a cartoon of me with a speech bubble saying, “I keep waiting for my fairy godmother but that b*tch never shows up.” I guess that’s how I was living my life. I kept expecting and believing that someone was going to discover me-to pluck me out of obscurity and say “You’re exactly what we’ve been looking for!” and usher me into this new exciting life.

But alas, I’m 35 and it’s time to realize that if anyone is going to pluck me up out of obscurity and grant me the life I desire, it’s going to be me. I’VE GOT TO BECOME MY OWN FAIRYGODMOTHER. It’s time to do for myself what I would ask a fairy godmother to do (make my life more beautiful, make my body fit and trim, give me beautiful clothes to wear, give me extensive free time to create my art and put it out in the world inspire and share a smile with others, straighten my crooked smile, put hot pink highlights in my hair, make me shine with pixie dust etc, etc…)

So my friends, with much said and much, much more to say, I share with you this blog–my first ‘wish’ granted as my own fairygodmother. And I leave you with a question, a call to the true part of you deep inside, “If you had a fairygodmother and beautiful upon beautiful she appeared to you right now-sparkling glitter, shiny wand, cheerful theme song and all-what would you ask her for?”

Now go and do it for yourself.

In Love,

Anne 🙂

P.S. The tears of joy came because my husband called & told me we are going on a 7 day Caribbean cruise aboard the Disney Magic~!! I believe vacations are a necessity of the soul but more on that later. 🙂